So the end of term is nearing, one week and my holiday begins. But before that I need to finish a couple of things: Write an essay for biology about a topic I have yet to choose. Study for the biology exam. Study for the literature exam. Finish my log of bean and wheat plants growing, the bean plants that have yet to survive (got pictures though). Finish my English Portfolio, damn probably lost half the stuff that’s supposed to be in there. Finish my English speech, finish my stats speech. Start on the third reflection for English about a third skill (??).

And you know what. I don’t feel like doing any of it. I’ve got better things to do! I need to hang around with my friends, do stupid things that have got nothing to do with school. Stand in the rain talking to people, tell someone something. I don’t know why but because its almost holiday I don’t feel like doing anything, I’d rather just wait for the holiday to begin and just don’t care about what happens to my grades and stuff like that, I’ll probably pass all my courses even without doing those things. But I won’t not do them, because I’ve got me a really sucky conscience thing. It keeps on telling me things like: you need to finish this. You need to do that. I cannot except it if you do not hand in that assignment on time. If you fail to do that speech good I don’t know what is going to happen to you but it won’t be nice. I have never been able to not go to class. My stupid conscience made me ask the teacher if I could go home, when there were five and a half hours to spend before the second class started, and it wasn’t even a useful subject. It was PE for crying out loud.
Having such a conscience sucks, (ok, sometimes it is handy but most of the time grrr) and I’ve had it all along. I’m thinking of ways to just like turn it of, but that hasn’t been possible yet.

I do hear from more people that they really do not feel like doing any homework, so thank Sot (Something, I’m totally out of the whole God thing, I don’t like him, I chose Something, he’s way cooler) I’m not the only one. But still I feel like I really need to do something and I’m just not doing anything. By now I should be practising my English speech and my Stats speech, but no, I’m writing on my useless blog. But well holidays are coming up, that is my excuse.

I’m going to go snowboarding in the second week of holiday. I’m so looking forward to it, I love snowboarding, I’m not good at it, but it is so much fun! And in the end of the holiday I get to go to the Umbilical Brothers in the local theatre, that should be so much fun, a friend of mine is coming too. In the middle there is a dentist appointment, that is a bit less Jippie! but well, I’ll survive that one too.

So now I’m going to kick my bum into studying again, wish me luck!

Love, Lucy