Holiday

Well tomorrow I’m going on holiday. And I really don”t want to. It’s going to be so boring. Nothing is going to top last year. Last year was so much fun. Really nice people, the whole field was nice. We never ate alone, it was so much fun. I’m afraid this one is never going to top that. So I’d rather stayed home. But well, I promised to go, so I can’t really back out now. So I’m going to have to sit in a car for 12 hours at least with one of my brothers. So not looking forward to that. And I’m going to miss my friends. I’m going away to a totally different place.

I just went shopping today with 2 of my friends. The strangest thing happened, I was spotted in a dress. And a skirt. And I actually bought them. I think a whole bunch of people are going to be so surprised, I never where girly things. I don’t like them, I can’t sit normally in them. So I usually don’t buy things like that. Now I did, and I bought shoes, really nice shoes with checkermotive on the side. They are just really nice, black and white that are my colours. Just neutral and nice.

Well got to go to sleep. Because tomorrow I’m going on holiday. Woot, Not!

Love, Lucy

Reality

Yesterday I was e-mailed my new address. Now everything is getting way to real. It’s actually going to happen, I’m moving, that’s finally sinking in. Reality is sinkin in!

But I wanted that to be, well not so soon. Changes are not to my best likings. Actually I hate them! Which goofhead thought that 6 years was enough! I like my school, the students and the teachers and other people way to much to just leave. But that’s whats expected. Everyone thinks it’s normal to leave and be well excited about doing something else. So that makes me a very strange person. I’m not supposed to think: “Fak, I don’t want to leave and do other things. Why can’t everything stay the same and let everyone be here.”

Some of my friends are moving. In one of my friend groups (which consist of around 5 people) 3 people are moving, one to the north one to the south and one, me, to a far away corner of the country. While the other two keep living in the centre and stay where they’ve lived for quite long.

Another one of my friends is also moving, she’s also going north but somewhere else. So strange, everything is changing and I don’t know what to do. But well, It’ll all work out and everything is going to be fine.
Fine again by Seether
It seems like every day’s the same
and I’m left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and there’s no color to behold
They say it’s over and I’m fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and there’s no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
‘cause I can’t seem to get this through
You say it’s over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when I’m dying here

And I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And I’m not scared now.
I must assure you,
you’re never gonna get away
And I’m not scared now.
And I’m not scared now. No…

I am aware now of how
everything’s gonna be fine one day
Too late, I’m in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyone’s gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everything’s gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself

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Brilliant lyrics, pieces certainly reflect my way of thinking at the moment. Aspecially the refrain: And I’m aware now … just as well.

That’s why I like Seether, their lyrics are usually really true. It sounds strange, I know, but their best songs have lyrics that are very much the truth. They really describe life, and not always the good life. Fine again for instance is about the period of life after rehab from alcoholaddiction. Although I strongly oppose against drinking alcohol. I mean, why would you drink something that makes you do strange things and makes you behave weird and stupid. When you sometimes can’t even taste the alcohol, then just drink the drink sober right! But again, I’m one of the only strange people who think that way. Although some of my friends agree with me, which is really great.

I’ll miss them, I won’t forget them and I’ll think of them!

Love, Lucy

Diploma

Today was my graduation. I finally got my diploma.

That just sucks, now it’s official. I have got to leave school and go somewhere else. Ofcourse it’s exiting and stuff but still. This school was the best time of my life. At primary school I got bullied a bit because (this is my theory) I was smaller, smarter and younger then everyone else. At secondary school people finally understood me. I’ve made the best friends, people who I can talk to and that now what I’m saying when I say something.

I can talk about my problems and they understand me. That’s all going to change now because it’s going to be so far away, the place where I’m going to live. And let’s face it, it’s much easier and better understood if you speak to people in person, instead of emailing or messenging.

Oh no, I’m so going to miss them. Miss them sooo much. A friend of mine lives 2 trainstations away and she just get’s what I’m saying because she also had my problems, she understands me! I just don’t want that to change. It Sucks! Life Sucks!

 But well I’ll survive, and I’ve got a date with her to go to the hairdressers, which is always fun. We both hate going to hairdressers because well, they usually aren’t the smartest people in the world and they ask really silly things. Together it’s actually quite fun because you can talk to each other and comment and stuff.

Another friend of mine is going to go on holiday, with school for three weeks, to India. I mean that’s like far far far away. She ofcourse is very nervous, I don’t blaim her, but I sure hope she’s going to have a really nice time. I’ll miss having strange conversations with her and talking about psychologie stuff. If you let her she’ll just keep talking and that’s so much fun. Aww, changes suck!

All the people in my class, I did physics, chemisty, biologie, maths (all extra heavy) and economics and some other strange subjects. I’m going to miss them. They all are a bit nerdy, but the good kind, they were fun and smart and brilliant and well most of them like computers. I liked them, you could talk to them about things ‘normal’ people find very dull. I can’t help that I like the universe or something, and they just understand that and don’t think of me as some strange and annoying girl, or that’s what I hope ofcourse.

Well I hope everyone has a fun holiday! 

Love, Lucy

Summerjob

I just had quite sucky news, my summerjob which was for another two weeks don’t need me anymore. They employ to many people and they have got nothing to do for me anymore. So I’ve got to sit home and wait for my family and me to go on holiday. And I don’t even WANT to go on holiday! Why does this suck so much?!

I’m so not feeling happy since like a week before exams started so .. since 16-7 hmm 9th of may or something. That was also the day that we had the gala at school. I had to wear a dress. Well that’s a once in a lifetime thing for me, although I had a really nice one. I also had to walk on high heels. Well that’s not really my speciality. And of course it rained. RAIN I Hate rain! It’s wet, cold and nasty. So ofcourse I was cold, ah how I hate being cold. I hate it, well it seams I hate a lot.

But I love some things to, I love Whose Line is it Anyway. It’s not on television here, we’ve got a way loserish rip of which actually compared to wliia is nothing.

Well got to go to bed cause tomorrow’s my last day *sniff*

Love, Lucy

Hello world!

My name is Lucy,

I’m 17 years old, living in The Netherlands, just finished high school and am now going to go to university. And I’m going to move, which of course is very exiting. And strange! I’m going to live in a different town.. So weird, but fun too.

I’ve got holiday now, and I work at the local supermarket 3 days in the week. I really can’t imagine to be somewhere else, but that is what is going to happen, so let’s just get exited.

I listen to quite a bit of music, usually rock/metal kind of things. I really like the band Seether. Seether is an alternative rock band. They’ve got really nice songs which have lyrics that just are very true. I can really identify to some which is quite strange but very nice too. The songs I like best are: The Gift, Broken, Fine Again and Love Her, but 69 Tea, Truth, Sold me are also very good. I also listen to Sabaton, apparently a ‘power metal’ band with most songs about the second world war. 30 Seconds to Mars nice band too, especially the songs: From Yesterday, The Kill and Beautiful Lie are nice. Last Resort from Papa Roach is also quite listenable. Of course: Linkin Park, although the new cd is well, hmm not as nice.

Singing, I do that quite a lot, although I don’t think that my family is very happy about that.. so usually I just sing along with the music on my computer. Because then you cant hear me sing, they like that better. I also bake a lot of things, my mum doesn’t really like it because she’s always on a diet. I bake things like cookies and cakes, and I melt chocolate and things like that.

I watch way to much television. I really like NCIS, Numb3rs, Criminal Minds, Gilmore Girls, Grey’s Anatomy, Bones, House, ER, Ghost Whisperer, Men in Trees, Mythbusters, Brainiac, John Doe and some more.

I’ve recently found that skateboarding is a really fun sport, I can only go strait and turn a bit but still, and practise makes perfect, right?

Sorry for any strange or wrong English. As I’m Dutch I’m not perfect in the English language, please excuse me for that. Let’s just hope it gets better.

Love, Lucy